A new friend who is a writer suggested I write about my accomplishments, not only about depression. She is right. It is important to know that there is another way to be...joyful.
I listen to so much music now. Beatle songs and Norah Jones mostly right now. The film "Across the Universe" is a rock opera with Beatle songs yet not sung by the Beatles...what a beautiful film. Music changes the frequency. Stops me from ruminating over something negative -- I used to do this ALOT!! Now, if I catch my thoughts being too negative I switch to some music, if I can or close my eyes for a moment and just relax and breathe.
Meditation is healing also. I slacked off on it a bit, but I am starting again to meditate in the mornings and before I go to sleep. It frames my days.
Writing is healing. When you write fiction you can control THAT WORLD. So all the frustrations and angers I have in the "real world" I have the ability to include in my "make-believe world". I don't have to be frustrated that so and so can't understand such and such. I just incorporate it into a piece of writing and...presto I can still express my thoughts and feelings.
I am probably the happiest I've ever been in my life. I suppose it is because of life experience and that I know more what I need to be happy.
I am not afraid of having a major episode of depression again. I believe I would know the signs that have led me before and know how to transform them. I have some wonderful supports systems that I didn't before.