Once upon a time, a long time ago I was a chameleon. I wrote in a journal then.....
"I wish I could take a snapshot of everyone in the world, that way I would know where I fit in."
I was very aware of other people and how they might interpret my actions or words. I was extremely sensitive about how I affected everyone. So...I hid. I also had a hard time with boundaries of knowing where I began and ended and where others did.
I blended in. I didn't want to shake things up. Just keep the peace. Without getting into all the psychology, because I now know what caused this, it caused me much pain. I began to be a "silent rebel". That is how I would refer to myself. I saw things differently and I knew, but wouldn't say it aloud.
Hiding in the shadows feels protective. Hiding in the hole in the sculpture "Elation" will feel protective also. However, interaction with others, though it may be complicated and risky, is the way out of a hole. To become whole, we must emerge from our cocoon.