Alone you can go deeper within yourself. You can reflect. You can discover your demons. You can find peace.
With others you can lighten up. You can stop focusing on only your perspective. You can experience joy with another. You can experience frustration because the other does not "get you."
When suffering from severe depressions, I could not take in the others' perspective. I was somehow "stuck" and could not get out of myself.
I am very social. When I spend my time going out I get lighter and lighter and my "self" disappears or my "center" seems to get "off center." However, when the connection with others is a collaboration in which I exist and the other exists, I am in balance and feel so alive.
Nature can be my other. It is always a danger to fall into a negative frame of mind when I am alone too much or even sometimes for a short while if I stay in my home.
As I re-read what I've written it sounds so abstract. I am not creating visuals. I am not stating names and drawing pictures with my words. I am delving inward.
I saw the ocean. It's crashing deep blue current and white foamy waves upon the black rocks soothed me. I want to see her again. She teaches me to let go. I hold onto the present and fear the past mistakes and future pains. The ocean is constantly there like the breath going in and out. She assures me when I come again she will greet me.